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CAFFEINE, NICOTINE, & ALCOHOL
Bored to death in heaven, & down alone in hell. Demons jeer my attempt to be free.
Bipolar wasted youth,
never sleep never die.


Like the stars above,
they shine and shine over me.


Your voice,
was the soundtrack of my summer.
Unhappily ever after

Happy birthday?
Not very happy at all as predicted.

Nobody knows why I hate birthdays so much. There's just too much disappointments.
How many have promised to remember, to be there, and to celebrate with. None fulfilled those promises.
I'm sick and tired of having to go through that kind of pain over and over again.
If I don't care about my own birthday, then I won't get hurt over and over again like this anymore.

Who doesn't want friends who is willing to plan surprise celebrations for them?
Who doesn't want to celebrate their birthdays happily every year with people they love?
I'm human too, of course I want those too.

I guess it's just easier to just pretend that this day doesn't exist at all.

Disgust lies, deep within your empty gaze.

I've made another wrong choice in life.
Many told me not to but I still end up burning myself while playing with fire.

I never really care about the bad stuffs I heard about you.
I'm not even sure if I really do have feelings for you.
All I know is I can't help it but to go back to you every time I've decided to leave.
Because I'm too lonely? I really have no idea.
If it was in the past, I wouldn't have tolerated this kind of shit treatment from somebody.
So what made it different now, how am I able to tolerate this?

It has been almost two days we stopped talking..
I guess you couldn't even be bothered or maybe you just don't give a damn.
If you're not wanting me back, then what's the point of hanging on?

You've changed, then maybe I should change too. Goodbye.